Tell Me How Am I Supposed To Go On, When My Heart's Still On A Diet.

I might have a shot with Warner.

I don't know why but I am super nervous.

It is just like with Tony.

It's going to be a summer fling and then, with fall comes the inevitable.

It sucks.

I wish that I could feel that emotion.

I was reading Oscar Wilde's "The Picture of Dorian Gray".

If I could only feel remotely as passionate as the Basil Hallward felt about Dorian Gray.

His words were so beautiful and filled with passion and life.

To feel that way, regardless of the reciprocity of my emotions would be a fantasy and a dream.

Reading those words were like a prophecy.

I want to try so hard for once.

Is it so wrong to fantasize about being in love rather than the thrill of human contact?

Even if I fail with Warner, I want to try this weird thing called love.

Hollywood has taken away any novelty to love.

Now, it's all just "Meet, smile, talk, sex, then love".

I don't want that.

I want compatibility, shared interests, conversation, romance,and physical attraction.

All this seems impossible but I will listen to Journey.

And "Don't stop Believing".

Good Night, World.

Just came to say,

Good Night, World;

Good Night!